Sad, stressed, sick

Warning: This blog post is whining and venting. I just need to get it out.

I just don't understand why some people cannot have compassion and understanding. Why does everything have to be about you? I just don't understand why some people cannot bend a little to make others happy. I try to give everything I can to certain people thinking they will see the example. All they see is someone to take advantage of. It's so hard for me to walk away and stop helping this person. It's so hard for me to say no when they ask for help. It's also so hard when I ask for a small favor that I am told no. That I am told I am not important enough. That I don't matter. I feel like I have wasted so much time, money, patience, energy, life. Why are we taught that if you help others they will help you? What is the point of helping others? Why do I keep trying help this person? Why can't I just give up?

I just want to go home and curl up and cry.